sadskull's evil blogs

Yapper central part 1

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My first blog will be Tsukihime themed cus i really like tsukihime. if u havent read it you should you can read it online over @ "https://tsukiweb.holofield.fr/title"

The plot is really cool and the characters are cool. its kinda an eroge tho tbh so it gets freaky somtimes and the freaky scenes have crappy writing fml but apart from that its supper good!!!

my wife is basically the main character

The new tsukihime remake still hasnt got its second part released ugh but they translated the first part in english which is epic. I think they should release it on PC soon tho cus im sick of emulating it UGH

Listen to this its my fav song from melty blood actress again the fighting game its based on tsukihime its so fun

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actual coherent thoughts start here

Im gonna try and put videos in these blogs I think to make them better with me talking and yapping :3 I think it would be better

readings lame ugh but il do that for a different blog cus im writing this one whilst doing cardio to debloatmax so liek i dont feel like talking >:)

i try to eat within a like calorie deficit i think my body needs like 2000 calories so i aim for 1900 calories or lower so i dont get big. Im pretty low in weight considering i go to the gym as well but im very focused on lik leanmaxing and trynna look better. Im considered an incel by definition and i call myself a truecel but im trying to distance myself from that kinda stuff and not look like shit.

its kind of greedy and selfish to focus on looks cus its all for ego and social gain but i think i was raised on the idea that looks matter so i cant live without not improving myself

im kinda lonely so i think looking better will help a bit with getting friends and stuff. I know talking with weird cringy phrases and associating with incel stuff is cringy but like its a bit of a cope so please dont get too annoyed at it

I think i will be at my happiest when i get friends in real life who have incredibly similar interests to me although thats like very hard because everyone has their own unique selection of interests and on top of that you need them to be friendly and not annoying and mean. for sum reason i think poeople on the internet think im gay??? i do homo jokes sumtimes but i dont think thats too weirdd????

I do have people i talk to in real life but they mostly just hang out to do drugs now. I use to join them because i had a fear of missing out but i did it for like just over a year and it kinda ruined my thinking. Is that normal??? i only took like psychadelics but my brain thinks weirdly and i keep gtting scared and confused randomely. it makes it hard to sleep because now dreams confuse me and i struggle with finding out whats real and whatnot. what makes this worse is that i have like mini delusions and dream esc thoughts during the day and i get confused and mistake these thoughts for reality. If anyone knows how i fix this please help cus like i cant lie i need help i think il try go to a doctor but i dont want weird brain medecine. this makes me sad and it makes work hard but ima quit soon

I wanna try playing more games again i spend too much time on discord and twitter and instagram and 4chan its really bad its frying my brain even more then it already is. I wanna try playing like a huge variety of different game genres. i already do that but theres so many new games out and i wanna play them all. it would be nice to catch up and play some older games as well that i never got around to playing

this is like me testing out a first blog so its kinda silly ok bye il do a better one next time